Monday- Our last day together

4/12/c Bear's Journey

Bear came to us in Nov. 04 when he ran up to my Husband’s truck. He was wet and very cold, had never been inside a home, was intact and peed on everything and he had zero training. He was about a year old at that time.

Training started immediately and after we determined that he was likely abandonded and no owner was coming forward, he was neutered and joined our family. Over the past 9 years, we have had many excellent adventures together including several trips to Dog Scout camp, kayaking on several rivers, many fundraisers in which Bear raised thousands of dollars by collecting money from people and dropping it in a bucket and earning 31 different Dog Scout badges. I found he had a knack for Search and Rescue, was obsessed with lure coursing, loved agility and that kayaking was one of his favorite activities.

In February, he lost an eye due to a tumor and on April 10th was diagnosed with an inoperable prostate tumor. It was estimated he would have about 2 months, but it hasn’t even been two weeks. We have increased his pain meds, but he still has times when he’s uncomfortable so when it warms up tomorrow (Monday), we will take one last boat ride and hike and then say our final goodbyes.

I wish I could capture time in a bottle to enjoy this special boy whenever I wanted. But photos are as close as I can come to that. This little Beagle is truely one of a kind in his fearless ability to learn and try new things, enchant every person he has met and flirt with all dogs. And he’s been a teacher, best friend and snuggle buddy for me like no other dog I have had or worked with.

I’m typing this through tears because it is ripping my heart out to know that soon I won’t be seeing him zipping around the yard or laying out back watching for rabbits to chase or sleeping on the couch looking more comfortable and peaceful than any dog I have ever seen sleep. And I know that no other dog will ever be like my Bear Bear. And no other lyrics express how I’m feeling better than Time in a Bottle:

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I’d save every day like a treasure and then,
Again, I would spend them with you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
I’ve looked around enough to know
That you’re the one I want to go
Through time with

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you

It’s been a wonderful ride Bear and I will treasure the memories forever. Love you little man.

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Posted April 21, 2013 by dazzlesmom in Uncategorized

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